Modify the magician

I haven’t written in months. Need to get back on it. Even when I have the energy, I don’t end up writing. Call this a sigil to program myself or positive reinforcement of habits I plan to start tonight … whatever you like.  I know it looks a bit like a “picture of results”-style sigil but this is a result of mangling a statement of will until I saw pictures in it and then drawing the picture. 

Pretty happy with the result visually even though I can’t draw proportionately very well yet.

Not going to fire it off, just going to Pavlov it. Put it on a sticker and put the stickers on my door and on my walls and anywhere else I might see just before writing.

Feel free to use it if you want.  

Dream sigil

There are a number of things I can do in dreams. Mostly I don’t do them because I’d rather see where they’re going than manipulate them.

But on occasion, I’ve reversed time so I didn’t blaze over a hill and get stopped by a cop, teleported to get back on a bridge I’d fallen off and didn’t feel like swimming to get back on, or woken myself from a dream that wasn’t going anywhere.

At some point, I inadvertently added the ability to fly to my dreamself but I did it in the most convoluted way possible. Dream self has to lay face down on the ground, arms and legs in the air and think a certain way. It looks like those sky diving pictures only dreamself starts on the ground that way. Also, it’s tricky staying in the air. Considering how obnoxious it is, I think it only stuck with me because of the novelty.

Since I have other ways of traveling in dreams when I’m so inclined, it hasn’t been a big deal but it’s a little annoying that others can just have flying dreams on accident and when I’m doing it on purpose, it’s such a pain in the ass.

It occurred to me that, of course, I could do what a lot of other chaos workers have done and make a sigil. So, I made one on a whim.

 Equally on a whim, I decided to fire it off the old orgasm method (which I’ve had trouble making work). But unlike my previous attempts, I decided against using the actual paper. I visualized the sigil tattooed to the chest of a visualized partner.

It was the first time I’d visualized a sigil and held it in my head on purpose.

As I went through the ritual, the sigil changed back and forth with a red rose (black stem) that I could hold and I could fly by holding the rose.

I’ve yet to have plot-free dreamspace since then so I haven’t had the chance to use the new skill. Considering how close I’ve been to dreamspace the past few days (largely focus and sleep deprivation), I’m pretty sure my ritual took place at least half in dreamspace. Pretty good hopes of this one breaking out of the parachuting bars I put myself in 5 years back.

Having had limited success with the sigils I’ve cast so far

I decided to try a different method than orgasm.

I’ve run into a continuing problem in my workplace: bullying.

My boss bullies, ze encourages my supervisor to bully, most everyone involved in the immediate power structure bullies to some degree or other.

Because workplace bullying is legal in my state and standing up to my bullies has met with limited or inverted success, I decided to try some magic using strong emotion to cast instead of using orgasm.

The next time a major incident of bullying occurred, I sprung into action.

First, I went to a secluded area and performed the Turkey Curse to get myself ready (think of it as a banishing ritual if you will). After doing the Turkey Curse, I meditated on the bully involved in the immediate situation and sent some “hey, you done fucked up, buddy” vibes.

Then I returned to my desk and sigilized the intended result: that the bullies would feel guilt over their bullying. I made it pretty general with the intent that I could direct energy at it whenever issues came up in the future.

Then I meditated over the sigil and the particular incident that put me into action. I directed all of my emotion on that sigil. And then it was time for lunch.

I had no suspicion that the person I was directing it at might have some sort of protection (did not suspect ze was an evangelical and might have some contacts with those who perform the sort of Christian magic I had inadvertently practiced in my teenage years). So, I got a nice big onslaught in response.

And for those thinking “Wicca Rede” right now, no, it wasn’t that. I know very well what guilt feels like from years of having it a part of my very ka while being a Christian. Besides which, I feel if someone does something they should feel guilty over but somehow never does, adding the guilt back in isn’t really harming so much as tempering a psychopathic tendency.

So, I improvised a protection spell and was able to enjoy my lunch without further trouble.

I think this has been my most successful working since the inadvertent Christian magic.

I’ll probably make a new sigil to use for the same purpose but with some protections for me so I don’t get the same shit when I use it next.